I think sometimes

If I were to die today would it be me or an irony of me ?
A little bit of both I guess.
And of endless feelings that could find no expression.
And of someone's purpose defeated.

Would I be happy it is ending?
Or would I die sad I never lived?
A little bit of both I guess.

Anf if I were to die tomorrow would it be different ?
Unlikely. For tomorrow is going to be the same. Like yesterday was.
I will wake up late. And go to bed late. In between I will sleepwalk.