Between you and me...

I feel like I am on a cliff. On the edge. It is so still I can hear my heart beat with a dull thud against my chest. I am so nervous, I almost feel tickled and laugh out loud. I slowly drop my gaze downward. From the clear blue sky into the dark, vertical, unending chasm. As I gaze into the depth, my heart beating faster and faster, scared and thrilled by what would happen if I let go of myself, I am held riveted, magnetically by the sight below. Realization dawns that I must take the leap. Having been here so many times before, returning without exploring what seems to be my destiny, this time I almost feel incapable of doing anything but gently bend and push myself against the infinitely elastic space. I close my eyes and step forward into the vacuum for the ride of my life. It is a leap of faith that I have taken. As I hurtle down, in a free fall, I see nooks and crevices that I scarcely knew existed in these rocks. Amazing shapes and form pass me by, in a blur with blinding speed. I feel exhilarated. I feel at one with you.

You feel like destiny to me. You are so quiet, I hear myself clearly. When we talk, sometimes your words take life and make faces at me, bringing me a smile. Sometimes you make the space between us melt and I am face-to-face with you feeling awkward and self-conscious. Your fragrance reaches me, traveling through optical fiber and telecom cable. I wake up looking for a green dot on the screen. As I work through the day, my eyes flit up every few seconds, taking in the color of the dot - green, orange and grey - matching my mood. There is a thrill in my heart and I am afraid too. I can land with a crash and end up hurting myself.

But for now, I will take the leap and enjoy the ride. I am hurtling towards you in free fall, as you wait for me, arms extended, smiling mysteriously.

Bon voyage!